Here's to new beginings..

ah.. h…um  * clears throat* - S.... SURPRISE!  I’m back!

Okay, I know I’m not talking to many people through this, but that is not going to make me stop. So, what brings me back here? - A lovely comment from my favourite blogger – Defiant Princess aka Farzana Khan- thank you so much.
Time flies, it really does. Here’s proof-only some days back, I was speaking at the fresher’s party and now five years of college are gone. Letting go of it was not that hard. But at the end of it I’m really grateful to the place and SOME of its people for taking me some steps closer to where I’ve always wanted to reach. The good things that happened, I take along with me as memories and the bad, I take along as lessons- and both have had their share in changing me from the confused, conceited, starry eyed teen that entered the place five years ago.
Apart from degree certificate and the little something that I learned, I’m taking along some people- ones that loved me when I was not very lovable, ones that ask me to ‘take care’ not just as an etiquette.

Vini- Did you know that if I was asked to pick the nicest person and friend I’ve ever met- I’d pick you?. I know you’ve had a hell of a time dealing me as a roomie. But no good thing comes easy. ;)
Zarin – you are a rare combination- beautiful in and out.
I hope we stay the same.
Reenu-you know where all the good in you comes from ?– your family- you’ve got one of the nicest people as family- It was pleasure knowing them.  
Hiba- my partner in crime, shopping and eating -all awesome people are born on 21^st August, right?!Yeah, RIGHT! ;)
You both are the sisters that I never had.
D.K., Shubh, Arvind, R.K. ji- we’ve had differences in opinion- we’ve had our fights, even bitter ones- but at the end of it all, I’m really thankful to you guys- for everything.
Some wonderful seniors – who I do not mention by names for the fear of leaving someone out- but here’s the clue- if I stay in touch with you- I genuinely like/admire/adore you.The SLS girls, Keerthana, the many MCA- M.Sc.- MBA Chechis – my hostel memories would have been so empty without you all.
I’m glad that I could share this part of my story poem with you all and I hope you feel the same.
And yes I’ve got some NEWS-After an eight month attempt to prove myself worthy of a PhD scholarship- ICFO finally took the plunge and gave me an offer  (but  that was only after 4 beautiful and well written rejection letters that they sent me) .So the next part of the POEM is scheduled to be set in a beautiful city in Spain.I’m going to Barcelona (Yes, I’m excited, despite the fact that my knowledge of football is only a little more than how much most people know about M.Sc. Photonics).
Folks, I’m entering a phase of my life that I’m most excited about. Wish me luck.

I hope you all have new exciting beginings.

LOVE. HOPE. PEACE.
Jobless-Nerd
KKG

P.S:  This post is dedicated to the best thing  that happened to me in college.

P.P.S: And I do not blog, does not necessarily mean I do not read your blogs. I read every post on all the blogs I follow, I swear. I was just too lazy to comment.

P.P.P.S: I do not dance. Singing isn’t my forte. Hence .I try to write and it turns out very narcissistic like this. I hope you excuse me for all the time you wasted here. PEACE be with you. ;)

On the boulevard of my dreams..

"...so where are you studying?"
"I'm doing my integrated MSc. in Photonics at CUSAT"
"er...uh...M.Sc.???After class 12??It must be BSc right??
(Do I look like a moron to you??Didnt you hear I said integrated MSc.~~I'd love to give that for a reply,but from the time you learn to speak you are taught or forced to control your feelings n what you speak)
"No,its a five year course straight after class 12-"INTEGRATED"!
"M.Sc. in what did you say?"
"PHOTONICS"
"..oh...the youth these days always want to do something thats out of the box"
(Cannot explain the feeling I had when I heard this :Dfor I always wanted to be different)
"....but Photography and such fields arent so good for girls,I wouldn't say that its a good dare"
---->>huh?? :-O he spoiled it !!
(argggg..where in the world do I get such  kind of people to talk to~~the world seems to be full of them)
"Photonics isnt Photography..its scientific-we learn of lasers,optoelectronics,optical fibres and things"
"ohh..my cousins son is doing engineering at "*********** college"..you should have tried writing the entrance exams after preparing..M.Sc. will take you no where.B.tech gives you the 'professional' power in the job market"
(...hello...you are talking to someone who has been one of the toppers of all her classes okay??
Being frank-I badly wanted to brag about my grades to that moron.Again I did not!)
"Ohh..but I am not interested to join the crowd of engineers and end up in an a/c cabin of some 'posh' IT company." :) I was glad I said that.
"And I guess its time for me to get down.Nice meeting you.Bye"
I didnt mean the second sentence though I sure recognise it was my voice.
It really gets on my nerves when people underestimate my dreams and my course.


Joining for this little known course called 'Integrated M.Sc. in Photonics' at the 'Centre of Excellence in Lasers & Optoelectronic Sciences' was a dare in the eyes of almost all people I knew.
I'm a girl of many dreams,to list a few-
1)Class 3--Scientist (not because I was very interested..just because everyone said'doctor-engineer-teacher-doctor' and I wanted to be different) :P
2)Class 5-8--Space scientist(inspired by a lesson in my English reader)
3)Class 8--->Astrophysicsist (because I wanted people to 'wow' :P)
4)Till class 12 --->Astrophysicsist + clear the civil service(that started when one of my teachers said he forsees one in me ..dunno if he was kidding)
(shhhh..... its during this time tht I heard of Photonics in CUSAT and just 20 seats??-that made it look like something light years away~~that was a secret dream)
The two months after class 12-I was thinking and rethinking -'what next?'
Finally I decided on B.Sc. Physics--in between,the aieee counselling created some re-re-thinking about the decision-But,no I had decided to go for physics and meanwhile prepare for ICS.
But then fate decided I'd be one of the '20' to study 'photonics ' at CUSAT....wowiee...!
On August 4 2008- finally I covered all those light years and joined CELOS :D
At this juncture all I can say is:
                           Two roads diverged in a Yellow wood
                           Sorry I could not travel both
                            And be one traveller,long I stood
                           Then took the other, as just as fair,

                           And having perhaps the better claim

                           I shall be telling this with a sigh
                           Somewhere ages and ages hence:
                           Two roads diverged in a wood, and
                            I took the one less traveled by,
                            And that has made all the difference !  
                      
                             -(borrowed from Robert Frost :D..hope he wouldnt mind the deletions :P)      



Love
Jobless nErD !!